I DON'T LIKE MOLESKINES. TELL ME WHY !

I KNOW I SHOULD / FEEL LIKE I MUST.

SO MUCH PRESSURE LOOMS OVER ME TO FILL  

THEM TO THE BRIM WITH GLORIOUS THINGS.

I DON'T REALLY "DO" SKETCHBOOKS BUT WHEN I DO  

I NEED TO SCRAWL ALL OVER THEM,  

LITTER THEM WITH MIND GUNK AND NOT  

HYPERVENTILATE IF THE WORK CARESSING THOSE  

PAGES ISN'T MY VERY BEST.

WHY DO I PUT THE MOLESKINE ON SUCH A PEDESTAL?

I DON'T REALLY KNOW, I THINK IT HAS GOT  

SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE QUALITY OF THE PAPER  

(SO HEAVENLY.)

NOTHING BEATS THE SMELL OF A FRESHLY  

UNWRAPPED MOLESKINE.  

I THINK PERHAPS I SEE THE MOLESKINE AS A 

SERIOUS SKETCHBOOK, ONE THAT WOULDN'T  

CARE TO STAND FOR MY CREATIVE NONSENSE.  

OR MAYBE I PERCIEVE IT TO BE SOMETHING MORE  

ALONG THE LINES OF A FINISHED ARTICLE RATHER  

THAN A BOOK I CAN TOTALLY AND UTTERLY ABUSE.      

I'D FEEL GUILTY ABUSING A MOLESKINE.

I THINK THAT IN MY MIND I HAVE A BIT OF AN  

OBSESSION WITH THE NOTION OF THEMES AND  

EVERYTHING HAVING CONTINUITY.

THIS IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE REASONS  

WHY I RARELY WORK IN SKETCH BOOKS.  

ANYTHING THAT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE IT BELONGS  

(EVEN IF I QUITE LIKE THE IMAGE)  

MAKES ME DISCONTENT 

(WHICH I SUPPOSE IS A BIT THICK REALLY.....

GET A GRIP IT IS JUST A SKETCH BOOK!!!!!) 

WITH THROW-AWAY SHEETS I GUESS  

THE PRESSURE  IS OFF.  

NOTHING NEEDS TO FIT,  

EVERYTHING I PRODUCE CAN FIND IT'S WAY TO  

THE BIN IF I SO WISH.

I THINK THE BOTTOM LINE IS PROBABLY THAT  

I DON'T FEEL GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE  

HOLY GRAIL OF SKETCHBOOKS  

WHICH IS A SHAME CONSIDERING THE  

GINORMOUS  

PILE I HAVE BY MY BED  

(ALL WITH LESS THAN A DOUBLE PAGE  

OF WORK IN THEM)

ANYWAY, HERE WE ARE.....SOME WORK FROM  

SAID PEDESTALLED PAGES. 

MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL FEEL GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEE!