I KNOW I SHOULD / FEEL LIKE I MUST.
SO MUCH PRESSURE LOOMS OVER ME TO FILL
THEM TO THE BRIM WITH GLORIOUS THINGS.
I DON'T REALLY "DO" SKETCHBOOKS BUT WHEN I DO
I NEED TO SCRAWL ALL OVER THEM,
LITTER THEM WITH MIND GUNK AND NOT
HYPERVENTILATE IF THE WORK CARESSING THOSE
PAGES ISN'T MY VERY BEST.
WHY DO I PUT THE MOLESKINE ON SUCH A PEDESTAL?
I DON'T REALLY KNOW, I THINK IT HAS GOT
SOMETHING TO DO WITH THE QUALITY OF THE PAPER
(SO HEAVENLY.)
NOTHING BEATS THE SMELL OF A FRESHLY
UNWRAPPED MOLESKINE.
I THINK PERHAPS I SEE THE MOLESKINE AS A
SERIOUS SKETCHBOOK, ONE THAT WOULDN'T
CARE TO STAND FOR MY CREATIVE NONSENSE.
OR MAYBE I PERCIEVE IT TO BE SOMETHING MORE
ALONG THE LINES OF A FINISHED ARTICLE RATHER
THAN A BOOK I CAN TOTALLY AND UTTERLY ABUSE.
I'D FEEL GUILTY ABUSING A MOLESKINE.
I THINK THAT IN MY MIND I HAVE A BIT OF AN
OBSESSION WITH THE NOTION OF THEMES AND
EVERYTHING HAVING CONTINUITY.
THIS IS PROBABLY ONE OF THE REASONS
WHY I RARELY WORK IN SKETCH BOOKS.
ANYTHING THAT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE IT BELONGS
(EVEN IF I QUITE LIKE THE IMAGE)
MAKES ME DISCONTENT
(WHICH I SUPPOSE IS A BIT THICK REALLY.....
GET A GRIP IT IS JUST A SKETCH BOOK!!!!!)
WITH THROW-AWAY SHEETS I GUESS
THE PRESSURE IS OFF.
NOTHING NEEDS TO FIT,
EVERYTHING I PRODUCE CAN FIND IT'S WAY TO
THE BIN IF I SO WISH.
I THINK THE BOTTOM LINE IS PROBABLY THAT
I DON'T FEEL GOOD ENOUGH FOR THE
HOLY GRAIL OF SKETCHBOOKS
WHICH IS A SHAME CONSIDERING THE
GINORMOUS
PILE I HAVE BY MY BED
(ALL WITH LESS THAN A DOUBLE PAGE
OF WORK IN THEM)
ANYWAY, HERE WE ARE.....SOME WORK FROM
SAID PEDESTALLED PAGES.
MAYBE ONE DAY I'LL FEEL GOOD ENOUGH FOR THEE!
